Performance and Perfection

As a naturopath, I always hear that patients don't have "enough time" to work on their health: whether it's changing their dietary pattern, getting more movement in their day, or sleeping longer. They don't know where they will find time in the day.

My canned response to this is how there is often A LOT of time in the day to fit in health related activities (maybe watch a few less episodes of netflix...I'm guilty of it), but we just choose to do other activities instead of the health promoting activities that will bring us closer to our goals

I'm falling into a bit of the same trap.

By the end of the day after my full time job (supplement sales), my automatic desire is to just veg out (social media/netflix/follow sports). Work is more mentally draining since I'm driving a lot, and have to be so "on" in the sales process. I'm doing well at work, and I'm still relatively new in the position, so I feel that this is just part of the process in getting used to a new set of responsibilities. 

"Vegging out" is something really out of character for me, since I have been consistently physically active since my high school years. I'm a strength and conditioning coach, sports nutritionist, and naturopath for heaven's sake; you'd think I would have this sorted out by now.

That's the biggest part of the problem- the feeling of knowing that you have the CAPACITY to do better, even though you're still considered to be producing well by your peers and your managers at work. 

Getting all of this positive feedback about what you're doing is almost counterproductive when you know that you can do more, or you that you could be more effective in how you're spending your time.

I'm not asking for perfection.

I don't expect to be a 90hr per week worker (all projects included) it just doesn't fit the lifestyle of what I need right now. But I know that I can be more directed in my work, and not fritter away time throughout the day, evenings, and weekends.

I know that stepping back from working on my side-hustle in some capacity is probably in order. I don't feel like I've taken a break in 8 years of post-secondary education, and going straight into work.

It's just hard to let go of a project that you're really passionate about when you know it will benefit others and yourself in the long run. I'm not sure what stepping back looks like just yet, but I'll keep you posted.

Thanks for reading. I'd love to hear from you about your challenges in these topics:

What challenges have you faced relating to your effort or your output?

What self talk do you have relating to your projects?